Starting Over

It's been over a year since Kit left, and I am finally starting to breathe again. It's strange how you can get so lost in a relationship, that you cease to exist.  I was too flexible, passive, loving, and trusting.  After 30 years, I never expected him to file for divorce.  I was committed - invested - all in.  I always believed in making it work.  I found out I couldn't do it alone. I couldn't love enough for both of us and live with a growing pile of rules and expectations.  My all wasn't enough. There was no credit for trying - even when I ran my health into the ground.
So now, I spend most of my days alone with God and my two animals.  Maybe I can catch the dream I once had and fully become the person I was meant to be.  I have been exploring my options, and enjoying the freedom in God that I once had.  No pressure to perform - but total acceptance.  Freedom to serve God alone.  
Alone. 

Hey there!

It has been ages since I posted here. I have become very attached to Facebook - especially Restaurant City! M, my oldest, and I swap food and water each other's gardens. We are also Ninja's, but I haven't been able to get anyone to join my Dojo in Ninja Warriors, so I get beat up every day. . .but I'm rich!

Cleaning and getting ready for Christmas. Can't wait for the girls, my new son-in-law, and various friends to come for the holidays. Selecting recipes for cookies, and planning a Christmas Tea. . .now to just get off the computer. . .

Fabric Design

Ok, here's my latest obsession: Fabric Design.

I resigned from my job in early March. New manager - guy - with no sewing experience was making life miserable for a lot of the ladies. After dismantling most of the processes (how things had been done), and complaining about my time in the office (trying to catch up the loads of paperwork) - I decided it was time to let him learn to swim on his own. (They weren't paying me enough to train him and everyone else.)

I am working on teaching some sewing classes there, if I can ever iron out the details with the mgr.

So, as a woman with options, I have been exploring my creative side. Sewing, writing, cleaning (oops - organizing), and playing on the computer.

I always wanted to try my hand at fabric design. . .so here ya go! (most of my experiments haven't been made public yet, but if you have a notion to design: Check it out. . .

http://www.spoonflower.com/profiles/sandie'sfacinations


Additionally, I will add a pic of my newest sweetie cat: Lady Catherine

Pondering my age

Okay - so I published a few posts that have been sitting on my list for nearly a year.

I have been enjoying my 3 daughter's this holiday season. Can't believe "the baby" with be 21 years old in Feb '09. In her 3rd year at University of Idaho. Middle daughter a senior at Idaho State, and their oldest sister, also attending ISU.

Me? I'm Assistant Manager at the fabric store again, after an eight week stint as "acting manager" - much nicer to be supporting someone who has all the responsibility. . .Wait - - -I'm doing most of the work while he's in training. Having a blast.

I had foot problems last year - broke a couple of bones, but now doing well for my age. Hate to admit it, but I will enter the Senior citizen category on my next birthday (this month).

Don't act my age, so no one believes me at work. If they'd look closely, they could see the tell-tale signs under my chin. . .

A couple of summers ago, I took ballet for the first time. I always wanted to be a dancer. . .
However, my ballet career didn't last long, and now you can see why. . .